Swirly Whirly Russian Girliez

Carrie Bradshaw said it best when she jumped into a painful situation knowing the outcome would be hurtful, "I'm an emotional cutter." And I agree..Because I am one too.. I did the thing I do every so often knowing it will hurt. I emailed the new Director of the school in Moscow that I have been stalking for 8 years. I shared that I was highly skilled and ready for a change, and wanted nothing more than to teach for the school.. And he was so kind. I got a "No", but with a follow up to explain what I already know, they simply cannot afford to give my chidlren free tuition when I am only a singleton. He shared a few personal compliments about understanding my desire to be in Russia and ended our correspondence with a Best of Luck. But you see, I don't need luck. I need a teacher to become my husband and want to teach in Russia. I need a man who will marry me, or agree to be my life partner while in Russia so that I can get there..But honestly, I can't imagine being with a man anymore. I haven't dated since I divorced and I am so okay with that..Who really wants to shave their legs that often? And don't get me started on the bikini waxes.. Even though I knew how it would end, it still hurts. I have never been rejected for something based on my family dynamic so it's odd to hear it. Again, "I'm an emotional cutter."